Clarity

So... Clarity is one of the most sought after things. People meditate to find it, drink to find it, abuse drugs to find it. But its ever elusive, always tantalizingly out of reach. You want it, you need it, feel in a fog without it. If only you could just see clearly. If only... But you can't see, so you stumble about, and you do that thing, and say those things... And you wonder where it all went wrong, where it all slipped away. Was it little by little? Bit by bit? Or was it sudden? Was there one brutal thrust, one devastating stroke of the sword that ripped it all away?

And suddenly, clarity finds you and clears away the fog. And you see it all now. What you've done, what you've said. What you tossed away without a moment's thought. You see what you had, shining like a diamond in the sun. You understand all those little things, all those moments that seemed so inconsequential in the grand picture. You see what you should have done, hear what you should have said. And with the clarity comes the gut wrenching pain....

If only you could have known beforehand....